Hurt

I hurt today.

I've been hurting for many months. I got a letter from Zoe's adopters about a month after her birthday. Started off good. Lots of neat tidbits about her development. But by page 2, it went on a different tangent.

"Her only siblings will be any further children we adopt..."
WTF? How dare they sit there and tell me that Michelle and her are not sisters. They ARE sisters, regardless of whatever delusion they are under.

"No more gifts, it will confuse her..."
And how exactly is it going to be confusing? I know many first moms and adoptive parents who have excellent relationships with one another....they even get to visit one another! And my sending her gifts would be confusing?

"We appreciate the situation with you and Michelle..."
Appreciate the situation? Nice try, really. But they don't know squat. They didn't have the little one excited about being a big sissy. They didn't laugh as big sissy put her head on their swollen tummy so baby sissy could kick her in the head. They didn't have to see the look on her face when she was told that baby sissy was going to live with a different mommy and daddy. They didn't have to hold her as she screamed and cried about how we needed to go and get her sissy back. Appreciate, huh?

I've been wondering how to respond that that letter. I want them to know that I do not share their views in regards to my girls. They will always be sisters, regardless of what the legalities say. They are not biological strangers. They are not just two random kids. They are sisters!

That letter was patronizing and condescending.

They do not plan to even tell her about me or her sister until she is 18. I plan to beat them to it. I managed to get their address and I got their last name. On her 18th birthday, she will get a letter in the mail without a return address. It will be letters from me and her big sister, telling her who we are and how much we miss her and love her and how we never forgot her or stopped loving her. It will include pictures of us and her first family. Regardless of what they want to believe, the truth will come out.